Chapter 7: Loving You

Fuck it- im tired!

Please stop whining and complaining about how your man is this that and the other- i REALLY dnt wanna hear it.

When will you learn that you & only you have the ability to make yourself happy?! If he’s such an ass or a cheater LEAVE HIM. & then you say “but he wasn’t like this before” well, I firmly believe that no-one changes overnight. Girl- the signs were there long before but you just chose to ignore them thinking you could change him! Bitch, if his mama cudnt make a decent man out of him who the fuck do you think you are to try?!

Women (in the past) were so indoctrinated (big word) to believe and practice that their purpose in life was to make man’s & everyone else’s life easier, for this I blame the Bible. We were taught that we aren’t of any worth unless we become a wife and a mother & build a happy loving home for our family. We were taught to be the dependable one, the rock- the solid foundation so that when life falls apart everyone can lean on us. Basically told not to be human! It’s a lot of pressure ya’ll! They even used to called PMS hysteria! *rolls eyes*

Its 2010 and sum women still live their lives according to someone else’s description and idea. I’m not that girl, shame. I am my #1 priority. Not my man, not my fam, not my frends- cos this is how I see it: how can I be the “best” for everyone else if im not the “best” for me? I am selfish beyond any reasonable doubt. The great Katt Williams once said “Bitch it's called SELF-ESTEEM! It's esteem of your mothafuckin' self. How am I gonna fuck up how you feel about you simple bitch?”.  *AMEN* Stop tryna get other people to validate your worth or purpose on this earth- cos girl, u gonna wait around for a very long time.

And another thing, ya’ll need to masturbate more. Im serious. I’ve never thought that I NEED a man for anything vele. But once I started having sex I used to think ok, so men do hav sum use… THEN, I masturbated! Oh laaaaaaaaaaawwd! *choir singing* FUCK MEN! People are so caught up on the notion that you need another human being to make you happy or “complete” you- not me. I now know wat mama meant when she said ‘God gives you enough to survive’, the rest are just added benefits.

So what did we learn? You as you are awesome! And if you aren’t, come to me I will teach how to be awesome. (hahahahahaha)! & never ever let anyone other than u dictate ur lyf 2u. true happiness can only be found once you as you as an individual are complete. And yes, sometimes it is ok to be selfish. And the greatest lesson learnt is…. MASTURBATE! It’s the pinnacle, the climax, the peak of true love. Hahahahahahahahahaha!